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Saturday, 21 February 2009
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I used to pamper myself a lot back then like getting facial and nails done. Then it got too expensive and I starting doing my nails at home. I usually did my own nail once a month. Regardless, I took good care of my outer appearance.
Then Huy came along. He would always notice how my nails changed and commented on how nice it looked. Then it became a trend that I would change my nails every 2 weeks, then weekly just so that I can show him my skill...
Then months went by, the compliments stopped and the fights were on. He's no longer interested in whether I changed my nails, or hair, or clothes for him. Although he sometimes complained that I didn't dress up for him anymore.
His lack of interest led to my lack of interest in myself. It just didn't matter anymore so I let myself go. I ceased to paint my nails. I let them chipped into uneven lengths. And even after I let him go, my inattentiveness to myself was a downward spiral. First it was my nails, my hair, then my eyebrows ... no more grooming what so ever.
Suddenly today, a little voice in my head is telling me that it's time. It's time to get out of this depression and be happy because I deserve it! So I listened. For the first time in 8 months, I AM PAINTING MY NAILS AGAIN. Here is a picture of my work.....for your eyes only :P
Monday, 16 February 2009
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Getting use to...
It takes some times getting use to dealing with myself
No more human punch bag
No more dumping my frustration on someone
It takes some times getting use to be by myself
No more dinner nights
No more movie dates
No more happy hour at 4 p.m.
Getting drunk and taking silly pictures
It takes some times getting use to being alone
Watching all the episodes of Heroes, SG-Atlantis, ratatouille,
and the list goes on ...
It will take some times to forget you(s)
But in time it is possible
It will take some times to get acquaintance with the most important person:
MYSELF...
Time to experience, reflect, reconcile, and act!!!!
Sunday, 15 February 2009
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My thought for the day: God..
God doesn't always give you what you want, but he/she will always give you what you need....
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
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Things/People I took for granted ....
My bed … never realize how comfy it is until my little sister took over and I had to sleep on the floor.
My car… Mom purchased it brand new in 2002. I scratched it up a month after it was purchased (rock felt and cracked the windshield, hit parked cars twice, barely did oil change, and more). Used and abused my car for 7 years now and it never break down on me. I even once drove 36 miles on an empty tank (literately … the mark went below the letter E) and made it home. .. And even to think that I wanted to purchase a new car ..
My dogs … they always run and wagged their tails when they saw me. Yet, I barely play with them or wash them. I think my dogs are stupid because I would call them over. They would come close but when I hold up my hand to pet them, they ran away… maybe they are scare of me…
My little sister … I always yelled at her to clean up the room and stop being messy. I woke up today and realized that all the stuff laying around was mine. I can be a jerk to her sometime. I could never have asked for a better sister … I mean, how many little sisters would actually do the laundry, mop the floor, or take out the trash ….
…. And the list will continue ….
What in your life do you take for granted ?
Friday, 06 February 2009
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He just not that into you ... the movie
So my gfs are making a date to go watch this movie today. I actually went to B&N and read the book. Is anyone else going to watch this movie????? Can't wait LOL :)
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